30 Years Ago Today 三十年前的今天-沒忘六四

30 years ago, in 1989, I was a graduate student of Peking University, and had experienced the whole student's movement from the beginning to the end. The following is some excerpt about what I experienced in the early morning on June 4, right after the massacre, from my memoir "Witnessing History.”

1989年，我在北京大學上研究生，從頭到尾經歷了六四。以下是我在自傳《靜水流深》中對1989年6月4日清晨的描寫：

“On the morning of June 4, 1989, I had gone to the student broadcasting station at Sanjiaodi in Beida as soon as I got up to find out what was happening with the democracy movement. I had heard that the previous afternoon there had been a clash between police and demonstrators in the vicinity of Xidan, not far from Tian’anmen, and things were quite chaotic. Just as I got to Sanjiaodi a male voice, choked with emotion, came over the radio. ‘At the hospital . . . I saw . . . a hundred . . .more . . . corpses.’The man was sobbing and couldn’t go on. ‘Corpses?’ I thought numbly. ‘What does he mean by corpses? This word is familiar;why can’t I think what it means?’ It was ages before I really understood, simply because I couldn’t have imagined the government would really give the order to fire.

1989年6月4日的早上，我還在北大上研究生，一起床我到北大三角地的學生廣播站，想聽聽關於那場民主運動的最新消息，聽說頭天下午局面有些亂，離天安門很近的西單附近警察與示威群眾發生沖突。
　　 剛走到三角地，就聽到廣播裡一名男子泣不成聲斷斷續續地說：「我、在醫院裡、看到一百、多具、屍體……」說到這裡，他就哽咽著說不下去了。我的腦子「嗡」地一下，費力地想：「屍體」？什麼叫「屍體」？這個詞怎麼這麼熟？我怎麼想不起來？好長時間我都沒有反應過來「屍體」是什麼意思，因我完全沒有想到政府真的會下令開槍！
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