Learn to Love 學愛

Today I suddenly realized: Although I might have claimed that I have been trying to cultivate “Shan(compassion, benevolence, kindness, goodness)” for nearly 20 years, I actually haven’t really learned it. In theory, I tried to do what I thought was right, and fought very hard for the wellbeing of humanity and “everybody” in my heart.

今日突然意識到：過去近二十年中，我雖然一直努力修「善」，但事實上還差得很遠、很遠。「理論」上，我願意爲「全人類」的福祉而努力奮鬥，現實中，我卻沒有學會善待身邊具體的人，特別是家人。

However, in real life, I still need to learn how to love specific persons around me, especially my family. I need to go back to grade one of elementary school to learn from scratch. I am very much humbled by those who already learned it; or understood it naturally when they were born.

我決定要回到小學一年級，從頭學起。面對那些與生俱來就知道如何去愛，或已經學會這個一課的人們，我更要有十分的謙卑。

有感而發，不是說大話。怕自己忘了，寫個「備忘錄」在此提醒自己。

May 10, 2017

寫於2017年5月10日